'Whispers of the Most high''

As  most of us  Women are we're in Fear of losing, said friendship/ Relationship/ at times so we become the first responder in how our  Codependent relationships  as well  even without it being    Codependent. As Ladies it's our job not to be a first Responder in  a opposite sex relationship, Tip on Fighting for Change don't respond first...Let him initiate .  if your anything like a dominant lady Here's   a tip   on how to Fight for said      Codependent Friendship/ Relationship with the  opposite sex.  let them  initiate first if you both still want it, you both will work for it, and if one is doing all the initiating it won't end..so if you haven't given them time to dwell on it, and consider it needing a change after talking with one another about it being  Codependent. Step back and wait for a change!!   Ball is in your Court (;   It might be hard with a fear of losing them but you'll see  how much they want it, Words are of little with no Act

 If you can talk about your ''Codependency' with the  partner of Relationship, do it but be mindful a Codependent partner might respond in a way to get a Raise out of you and toy with your Emotion's..or make you think otherwise or that you just Misunderstood...,  a  Codependent Friendship is the same it's like a Game of Twister,  on both, You can feel as if it's all fun in games, But  if Tear's fill your eye's, and in your mind,  The Conversation make's you Confused as hell.  For them it's a play your  in/ their play..  s imply act the part.. In our Interacting with  Codependent partner, We  put on a act for  them, we fear losing them. So we don't speak up/Nor call them out, We Fear their Rejection and push away from honesty with them on subject, If your Reading  your probably  in it/ Twisting in Conversasion in acton as well.. it all get's Aimed on you.Cause they know your Dependend on them. As a Women is to be United to a Man, We over

Don't bleed in front of a shark ....One moment of bleeding will make all they see, is bleeding, phase three of Codependency--  Yes Correct this is the People who feed of a Codependency-- in said Friendship/ Relationship. They see your fault's, Call you out, Play on your Emotions' Refuse to let it, Change Them …  it may be cute in all but your the one getting hurt not them....   ''Let  this Change you''   Some Codependent Relationship/friendships. Will never Change  so it's up to us when we see the Truth'' Some may. But most don't' We can let it feed off of us or we can give it up/ give it  The time away/AND RESIST THE  SAME ACTION'S THEY AIM OUR WAY AND HOW WE REACT TO IT..... Or we can stay, Rewind and replay, but  you can not change them, you can only change you here's 5 tips on/ Changing your ways   1. Step one. Might seem like Enough time away but if they Refuse to change you need to keep the time away as a const

My start of this blog is a Song that Relates to my feeling's As she sing's my life is what I'm Fighting for!! And as of now I feel that most now, A near Death accident is a Awakening to something you need to understand.   ?So what do we need to know? I've never wanted to Speak of what I deal with my Mild C-P, and now I'm finding that a life with the shame of coming out with what you deal with is not a life God Intended. Even though my case is a Low case doesn't make hiding it ok.... As I've been Awakened I realized,     as for those reading this be at peace with yourself, and don't hid any of your failing's.  I Grew up Constantly having Accident's/ And falling down in High school, It was going from the Dr's to home.  Then back to the Dr's/ From early on it was Constant Physical therapy.... As of now I'm back to Physical therapy..... And as Hard as it is to be back . I'm Glad because, I now see what I was like then/The Girl

Could it be Love or just a Dead end?? No matter what you feel in a dead end relationship. do the opposite, if it has to do with friendship.it isn't necessarily a bad thing to do the opposite from what most will do. And want you to do, it's your say, Even so if Love is included.. Maybe it's Codependent,  AKA Toxic Love. or maybe it's just a part of people pleasing what matters is you know yourself when deciding what do in any situation. Don't just do it to please people.do it if it pleases you by all means, Take a little time away at multiple different points check in with yourself and what's important. Could be different each time or stay the same. But on every intimate level, you need to check in on your own grounds Lay it down, mark of Love number two! .In any form of Relationship! 1.Know your ground, people pleasing and codependency isn't the same. 2.Intimacy in any form check in is mandatory. ... Meaning you give yourself the taking care of ne

Why must it be so hard to be Real with yourself,,,,,,,   Explaining yourself  24/7 in said friendship's/Relationships can be hard..is something no one should do. but a lot of us do it.. Weather Friendship/ Realationship/ acquaintances. If you do it 24/7 you yourself make it toxic, If it wasn't you... it wouldn't be...  SO WE OURSELF ALLOW IT TO BE CODEPENDENCY. ( Twist in friendship) Forgeting yourself, and trying to prove yourself.. So if your trying to prove something.. You Explan yourself away. Might be fun in all, But at a time you need to understand you, not them... we need to understand this we are in charge of us.not anyone but us. , As i've seen before, People's relationship's/ Friendship's/, We need to only let it feed itself for a while, You can go back.. Once Codependency'' Is out However it's Tricky to find out what Codependency is   So here's the Basics'' Codependent relations

As I Stood there, Heart pounding once again Ready to Flee, I heard three Word's the Lord Spoke to me in that moment, Be still/wait. Not what anyone want's to Hear. Yes. I was facing a decision .to Leave or stay at  my Home Church once again.  easy was never the way I went,   God didn't choose easy for me.. As a lot Choose to Flee the moment a Church show's enough flaws.... I've gone through ten church's in my lifetime, One had Drinking in the playground, As where us kids played and had Sunday School assuming that was just fine Behavior. we left... ( I will add year's later I would bring wine to my Small Group).. The Church is a body of Everyday people who are as flawed as they come it's not perfect people sitting on Sunday morning. But 'Broken people'' Regardless they show it or not ---- Expecting perfect out of a Church--- Is like expecting God to Answer us how we want??   I'd Dare  to say it's as Crappy as a sin. Perhaps just liv

''Did I Chose to Love, Did I point to you Enough!!   I don't feel like I  truly point to him enough, I point to me,, It's so Easy to become this ''Self Worshiper,'' That we don't even notice we're taking pride in 'us We're boasting, And looking less like Jesus, We're Awaiting heaven and we have this opportunity . Too leave something behind so other's have Eternal life' 'as well But we are Stuck in this Selfishness and pride, of Human race, Like Cain & Abel we are  Fighting against. The only one who Saves,    8 Now Cain said to his brother Abel,  "Let's go out to the field."  While they were in the field, Cain attacked his brother Abel and killed him   Genesis 4:8- 9     Even in Worship!!   We won't be leaving anything behind if we Contuse Fighting the Hands that made us, We each have a Ending, We all come to die, We all have just one life, One chance to make a Lasting Effect!!! Leaving a Lega

          I'll I want is the Bible, Not your Act's of Pride and recital's of Lie's, Not the hate Not the lack of Love We have because we still don't Understand,     That He gave his Blood, Not so we could boast, But be filled with the ''Holy ghost, Because He's who we Host, Not our own, Not what we want, Not what we deem should     be happing, Friend's He deemed everything, We can't deem if we do we Demean, Disgrace, Lower and hate, He is in us all, And who are we to call out, Those who are not in Disobedience. Who are we to judge, God say's come as we are and fall, Under his Law, Not ours not what we think, That is Outlawed by The Kingdom of God'' Because that's not our place,    As Daughters and Sons, That isn't going to help "Heaven come" That isn't helping, Thy Kingdom, Thy will be done, If we lack Love, We Lack the Kingdom Fill us with Grace, Because we have Mis

  Every blessings, Every Sorrow of raging war against the wind. And all my burdens left for Tomorrow,   I'll see my Savior once again The Path is no longer narrow, And I Can see it closing up again, He said Go Straight, My soul he takes, But pain fills up again, And oh I know I break for him, -=---- But this den is Small they’ve thrown me in... There’s Lions all around, I’m wearing thin, But to him I call,, Cause he is more then my fear so on Hand’s and Knees I Bow, I bind, and I COUNT MY FEAR OUT!!! My God is with me, My God goes before me, I will not fear, And with just one shout, I see in Gold, a Angel before me,, And these Lions walk out!!   I’m Daniel in the lions' den, And Lord I’ve heard Stories of tales of before, I’ve seen with my eye’s of the Glory of you, .... Lord And Here I Melt, In a way I haven't melted before, My Lips are tasting- What they haven’t tasted before, A Scream of Joy my ------------------------God is with me, And he will s

  Girl's who want to judge you, But at First there nice to you to make them feel better, Well I don't got, Time for that, So stick that on your Nicely, new, Sweater, Yeah I really don't want to talk to you about weather cause I got something better Then talking about weather, And sitting on your cell, Gossiping, And lying while Half the world is out there dying, Burning in hell, Committing suicide, Cause someone forgot to tell them,   There is nothing wrong with them, I see a Little Girl as she is struggling, against every wall that tells her she will fall? She will fail, She is worthless, No one cares, She is useless,                She is CURSED, Well she didn't care to be hurt, She didn't care to be STRONG AND BOLD  because she could feel, Though on the phone no one cared to, Call and Tell the Little Girl, that she is Worth more Or was, Cause now she is dead.. Or in her mind, Yes she was blind,to let     lies cre

I need something more There's Gotta be something more,Then a closed Door, Four walls, People that don't move, Don't Speak, These door's are not opened but on hold,  Due to a World so unlike Christ i can not Write, Speak, I am a Silent TV, black and white show's, Don't tell me they know, or understand it's black and white in this town, land,,,Cause i'm aware i live still, I'm alive, it's Cradit or die.. ,  at least, I'm just saying, Speaking life, Cause we are afraid const antly Too Admit, Hidding from Reailty, And what we can give, Cause we take so much pride in ourself, And how we live, Shame on me, Shame on You, , Turn off the TV, So long sweet life,  Let's Fight for something Worth Fighting,  A Silent Generation . Worth dying for,,To Break something and Awaken A dead River within, We are not living as we could be. Tell we Love everyone Completely we need more, we need Unity not a World that send's Siver

Not of the world!! Still in it. People who say thay Once died, again and again, Well I can see through your lie's, Thier wearing thin, Making   God look like some Gipsy, Like a genie in a bottle But my God, He Walked on water!! This is a once in a million time thing ,But you preach it like it happends every day, You Take the Miracle away.. Well it Breaks, Baby It Breaks, God is not a preformer of our Comfort, Like it would Bring you Comfort to say your, Wish is his Command, But he commanded the Seas, And that took it out of your hand!! Took it out of our Control!!!   The way your going, The choice you've taken, The Gospel your Remaking, Making it sound normel, Like my God, He does this all the time, But you’ve crossed the line, This is divine, Fine art, Fine china, Man, He doesn’t do it all the time, But does it at the    PROPER TIME.   It’s not just a title, It’s on the Hands of our Holy God, It’s not some Recital, But it’s Found in th

I Feel sometimes I need to be a Stronger Christian, All this talk of the Younger generation, The way YOU preach at me, While I'm crying, Like, WE'RE NOT THE SAME They say Don't give in, Your giving in? But I haven't though I have Sinned,   No. I haven't given in, I'm just taking it all in, If not being Ok, Means I sin, Look within yourself God feels pain, Infect He is Ok to share in sufferings, Cause he suffered for YOU, ME And I didn't let them have the Best of me, I want him to take the Rest of me, Because I am, Dead to me!! I, Am Dead to me!!   Though I am Fully alive, This Pain, Can take this body, And Break me open, Cause I know, I am Chosen, The Devil can knock me down and kill  me now, We're a Chosen generation, Hear, it, out Living, out, loud, So when I don’t Speak, Maybe it's because we talk about Foolish things that don't matter just passing time, Just passing an Hour But my Lord has Power, Wh

So at my Home Group Lately, The Leader has been Bringing up a lot of Hard hitting subject's, You know that / anxious / Feeling/ Sitting on the edge of  your Seat can't stay still Hearing what you hear,  will Last night I found myself in that very State,  Where everything felt so Similar, And your wishing you where a closed book' 'now, But your an open one, and not only that, There's pop up Picture's Of all your Failing moment's .   Is this for real? First imagine yourself .in a Dark Room, The Light's are off, You can't see anyone. The light's turn back on,,   Now Open your Eye's , It's a surprise party . there's balloon's everywhere, Music is playing. very loudly...Oh and you weren't invited  two it.  but  you dressed up very nicely go  to the door/ Knocks and someone, open's it  ?  With a very Unpleasant   Hay. What bring's you here?? .      It's Uneasy,  And your  Totally Misplaced, And you came