'Whispers of the Most high''

 When it seems everyone's doing something in there life but you.. Everyone's getting in a relationship, Engaged, Married, Having kids, Moving out, Traveling, getting a Job, And your left with None of that,, And as many times as you Hear it's not your Season, Doesn't make it Easy at all, Some People Believe in the ' When it's time it will,happen ,I believe in the'' If you make it Happen it will come Unfortunately, Everything  is in the way of me making anything happen for me, right now it's irritating, job, Realationship. So the Way I'd make it happen isn't the way everyone goes, But at least I'd have something going on in life, I'd be trying, After learning the Wrong ways to go on your own.  You learn better ways to go on your Own After a few slip ups, and mine were never supposed to get out, You learn better ways And that would be Great if I could just be able to learn myself,Teach myself, As an adult it's irritating,,,, as a kid...

This will be a Blog getting the Words out '' Wasn't Enough,And Never will be, I'm sure a lot of other Atypicals and None, Atypicals feels like this and nothing Adds up I don't mean to put ' I' In it it's Clear it's meaning that to just haven't had it in me to Clearify, But we're all Not Enough, I'm back to being Stuck in a Apartment with a 69 year old and a 65 year old No before I wasn't Moved out either, But I was    trying before the Car hit me, I was putting hour's.     At a Teen Center too  And Greeting at my Home church So my irritation lays here why didn't the Man upstairs Reward me? For the Time I put in? To what they call Ministry Why wasn't I Enough, He Rewards countless People when they are Faithful Yes I was Nieve, And did something stupid but was it that big of a Deal, I didn't go Knowingly,, Not only did I Screw up being Rewarded, But the Term Minstry leaves a bad taste in my mouth Not just due to one inci...

 Season's come and go, Scary Really, My Season is Now I am Fully Recovered, Fun,Not Really 2018 I had a lot of Independence, Little did I know then I Didn't appreciate it enough I ended up trading it all for a little more than, Just going to School, Yes now I can say. It was just a hookup, I was motivatied to take classes to... for Public Speaking, I had my life figured out a little bit but I lost Focus, I found someone I thought was Worthy to be around! I'm sure you Ladies understand,Life is not fair, I liked him, but it ended with me in the Hospital and Sneaking  around, Got me hit by a Car.. Please Laugh, if not be safe still,,,Your Worth is not Determined by a Guy or Girl, I lost everything for someone who didn't even like me,,And the Games weren't even that fun,  ACNH is More Fun, A little more cute, and more kid Friendly, Might be why no one around me likes it haha So as I said I'm Recovered now, From a Brain bleed, Unfortunately I can recall everything th...

 I'm on med's and I Realized something while talking to my mom How often do we want a exit the Ugly? Like me i want a job but  i wanna exit from wanting one and not being able to have one and in this world  it can be so  easy to take something to dumb that down even if not really needed I Don't  need med's to sleep  at night, But it's much easier to  get to sleep if your on some  Med's (  Escape from reality) if needed med's are a good thing if not needed it's a fine thing to do, take something cause reality can be a ugly thing, My dad has to do it Due  to his Weak  Heart it's                   Working, it's helping might be a little annoying but Reality can be annoying too, Ugly and Annoying............................

   q     q1233l IT'S LIKE I SAY SUPPORT  ME DAILY!!  We've all had Dreams before, But whatever Dream I had in the past is inside the Door I'm stuck knocking at, And I want nothing more cause though it's just a door it opens and holds my World, You see me here, But only from your View,She Screams Bullet proof, As she walks inwardly yet still Fears falling in a Dark hole all it is Black she hates Black it reminds her of her past, But she's not staying there, The people around just don't see like she does, If I admitted I always Feared, Was always Depressed trying to impress them All my high school year's I spent there and the Mockery only brought me Closer in, Even though you could see it Wearing on my Skin and Bones I simply Didn't care, I was Depressed and in fact Fell in Love with it, At a young Age I figured Why should I Change Change Meant I needed it, And I don't need anything in my own little world it's all under my Control or though I had T...